Something is brewing up inside me, and it ain’t from eating beans.
No, it’s much deeper than that.
I’m feeling moved. Isn’t it funny that when we are affected emotionally it’s called being moved? Like that’s what dance is all about. To move others and yourself through moving. It’s a mindbender like a mirror reflecting another mirror on and on into infinity.
So I’m feeling emotional these past few days. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I will be putting myself “out there” again at the Galaxy competition. I feel like I’m coming at it from a good place. Actually, I was a little shocked that it is exactly a week away tomorrow. I’m relaxed, I think, especially since I’m just doing single dances and I’ve released the need to “win.” No anxiety dreams like I had before Desert Classic, and my lessons have been free-spirited and wonderful. I am envisioning the experience to be like this, feeling as if I were just floating around the dance studio, this time around.
But that doesn’t mean this isn’t important. And one thing I failed to do at my last competition was to get clear about the experience I wanted to create. I didn’t write out specific aims that I hoped to accomplish. So I’ve learned from my experience and this proclamation, this dance manifesto for Stefanie, it’s been mulling around in my mind.
The point of the manifesto is to bring out the best of me, as a person and as a dancer. All too often I focus on my shortcomings, my faults, my flaws, my errors. I hone in on all the things I’m doing wrong, all the things that make me feel inadequate. This manifesto is my heart’s reply to the negative voices in my mind. It’s my new creed. It’s my new motto. It’s how I’m now going to show up on lessons, in life, and while performing.
And one other thing – I’m winging it. I haven’t written out a draft or anything. I’m just writing stream-of-consciousness here so we will see what I come up with. All I know is, that I’m feeling a lot of powerful emotions at the moment and I have decided to express them in this way. So here goes nothing…
I, Stefanie, Dancer vow that:
I will finish all my movements. I will follow them through on into infinity beyond the horizon. I will inhabit every moment with my spirit and project my energy in 360 degrees.
I will not be afraid. I will be bold and courageous.
I will love myself through every single moment. I will be my own best friend.
I will let loose. I will lower my guard. I will melt the ice.
I will breathe. Deeply. And often.
I will allow myself to be vulnerable and reveal my inner world.
I will claim my space and hold it.
I will persevere.
I will hone my instrument, my body, taking care of it lovingly, compassionately, and with the intent to make it as healthy as possible.
I will allow myself to feel and be sexy.
I will not fear to touch. I will enjoy the touch. I will allow my joy to be seen.
I will accept and appreciate any and all feedback I may receive as a gift. I will remember that no one has the power to make me feel anything except me.
I will give up the white flag and fight to be the best I can be.
I will accept and use my creativity and power.
I will connect.
I will create moments of magic for myself, my partner, and those choosing to share the experience with me.
I will believe in myself.
I will believe in what is possible.
Being a woman, I reserve the right to change my mind and add to or amend this manifesto at any time as I see fit! But I’m curious, what do you think I should add to mine? And, more importantly, what’s in YOUR “dance manifesto?”